I know this girl since in Junior High School, I was so devoted to her, a monkey love tenaager of fiveteen, the same age
that Renisa makes relationship with me. Migi we call her, a chic lady,
sweet, and smart. And after couple years I don't meet her, sometimes I
wonder how could be a girl like her is going to be. Maybe she would be
a career woman, she's been busy in her office or something
But then I realized, I expected to much on her, when met her coincidentally in ITB career days on October 12th in Sabuga, she just an ordinary girl. She was looking a jobs that day, joined with the crowd who think job in big company is everything. It was same situation with me who might be still a loser in job status, but at least I have quiet enough in comprehension. And I never consider that work in big company is a life security.I'd been worked, I have skill in forex despite in small amount, and I practice martial art in Hikmatul Iman.
Migi has no experience, she is jobless since graduated in 2006, now two
years after graduated from her college in STT Telkom, she seemed
to fling away all the smart and entrancement that adored me to obsess
her in fiveteen.
Funny if I rememmber how wondered she would be with her career in multinational company.
Well, I am sure it just the begining, I decided to start a new relationship with her, but of course not as lovers, I already
have and being of Renisa. All I want to do is just to make friend, we
would help and inspired one each other. We compete like we were in
Junior High School.
That's why I called her back yesterday. Well quiet usual, no longin, no missing words. In some parts, she is still Migi like the last time I met her, but in another part, she's been changed for woe not better, unfortunatelly. No boyfriend, no activities unless Playstation game, and no job.
Start from the scratch we are in the same situation now: looking for an eminent jobs.
But I pretty sure she could be something tommorrow, somehow she would
be Migi as the Migi that I expected or even better. Migi who is pretty,
smart, and has bright inner beauty. Despite she is not a doctor.
I realized that I made a mistake when Rizky, on of my best friend SMS me in Saturday evening, he asked me about our appointment to make double date with Intan and Renisa, my girlfriend. I have forgot to cancel it, because I have to go for Jakarta.
I realized that when Rizky SMS me, 'BRO, STILL WE'LL GO TODAY ?'
Then I realized that I forgot this appointment. Damn! I leave a joyful moment with a complicated business for the sake of my future.
I answere: 'SO SORRY, KI. I WANT TO, BUT I MUST TO GO TO JAKARTA NOW! :( '
Rizky : 'Ooh , WHY ? OK CALL ME IF YOU WANT TO ARRANGE LATER'
Me : 'I AM SORRY BRO, BUT I HAVE TO REMAKE MY PASSPORT NOW! '
Rizky : 'PASSPORT ? YOU WANT TO LEAVE THIS COUNTRY, RYAN ?"
Me : "YES, I WANT TO GO TO DUBAI'
Rizky : 'DUBAI? WHAT ARE YOU DOING THERE ?'
Me : ' TO WORK, I MEAN MAKING MONEY '
Rizky : 'WHY SO FAR AWAY FROM INDONESIA ?'
Far away ? OK, let's take concern on this point. Why I wanna go so far away from Indonesia ? Because I want to enhanced my life. That's is, I wanna fight. I wan to go to some where that I don't have any family there, have no relatives, knowing about nothing there, even the language. But there are possibilities for me to progress, there is a chance for me to success. That's why I chose Dubai or Middle East, not poor countries.
I wanna survive, maybe I have to start from the scratch, but at least I have my education and MBA as Capital. So work in abroad could be the best challenge for me to success.
So I answer to Rizky : ' BRO, I HAVE TO ENHANCE MY LIFE. WORK IN A COUNTRY THAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND YET THEIR LANGUAGE, AND HAVE NO FAMILY OR RELATIVES WOULD MAKE ME TO EMERGE MY BEST OF STRUGGLE, I AM PUSHED TO BE SURVIVE.
Rizky : 'OK THEN, BRO.GOOD LUCK ALL THE BEST FOR YOU. BUT BTW, WHAT ABOUT YOUR GIRLFRIEND ?'
Me : 'BRO, I TRUSTED OUR COMMITMENT, MOREOVER I HAVE TO COLLECT MONEY FOR US WHEN WE'LL
MARRIED, SO WHY MUST WORRY? PLEASE BRO... I HAVE TO GET OUT FROM COMFORT ZONE! '
It's a new beginning of my life. I am an MBA graduate now. And have obligation to use my skill in finance and operation management for the better of ummah.
Happy Eid Mubarak 1429 H. Again and again as usually Eidil Fitri tradition in Indonesia, we are the big families gathering in my grandma's home in Bandung.We all love our Grandma. We call her "Mbah Ti", she is 78 years lovely woman, and very inspired us.
Again this Eid has routin ceremony when the one and only time that my father and brother took prayer or Shalat in Shalat Id. Hah?! Well, not necessary to be surprised, it's usual for Indonesian people. Many Moslem people not uphold 5 daily prayers despite they convict that they are moslem.
Back to the gathering, when the Eid
One thing had I realized when I was reciting Holly Quran, the beginning of Surrah Al-Muminun :
1. The Believers (eventually) win through,
2. Those who humblw themselves in their prayers,
3. Who avoid vain talk (and deed)
4. Who are active in deeds of charity
`5. Who abstain from sex
6. except with those joined to them in marriage bond, or (whom captives) whom their right hand posses, for (in their
case) they are free from blame.
7. But those whose desires exceed those limits are transgressors.
8. Those who faithfully observe their trust and their covenants (commitment).
9. And who strictly guard their prayers
10. These will be the heirs,
11. Who will inherit Paradise, they will dwell therein (forever)
( Allah the Highest truth by His Decrees)
The verses conveyed something, is about the habit of the Believers, they are seem as like the tenet of Seven Habits by Steven Covey. Should it mean something? I think yes, I have a new consciousness, that is the habit whose creates the character of human being.
If you wan to know personality of a person, just look at his habit. Usually people assess people by the first impression when they first meet. But I am totally different, I never much judge a man by the first impression, the first impression is important, but who is the real person was only depicted by his habit.
That's why be careful of your habits!
Stay Hungry Stay Foolish
Control EGO, and maintain Good habits!
It's been 4 months since I started my project and blog of Casanova. The blog with a final objective to found my life mate, a wife of female doctor. Actually this is a very top secret project. Yet until this project over I don't tell the blog anybody except the girls whom been 'hit' by me of the project.
Maybe it seems ridiculous, I try to found and meet female doctors with harshly flirts. But I realized, I have to do this, there is no other way to connect my self with medical community, there's a rumor between them, doctors usually get doctor. Well then I come to break it. So I set up my self to engage in medical community, I try to meet and making friends with the girls from medical faculty, as many as I can. At any cost.
Many people whose have desire like me but feel bothered with the cost would be took a shortcut way: trying and searching from friendster or facebook.
Shit! I tell you something: Friendster, Facebook, Myspace or any other portal communities are the most loser way to make friends, considered they are only exist in virtual world. I don't care that many people has touted internet as the vast community, the double-quick ultimate tool for bringing people together into shared communities of interest.
They are just not real, and we don't get any real interactions each other through this. That's not a man's way to meet a girl.
Because the real guy live and face the real world not the virtual world.
That's why I am running Casanova Project. Many adventures happened during the implementation, of course for better or woe, the project has amplified something, that even the craziest would be happen if we try. Just like what I wrote on the header of the blog:
Because, Mind is The Final Frontier...
I appreciated Lex, he's right: Seize The Day. You know, maybe lot of people only live on their fantasy and day dreaming. Even whatever they said to plead their self about fantasies are: targets, goals, hope, planning, etc.
Supposedly if you're asking an optimistic scholar or a self-motivator, of course they would say, "You have to make planning for your life, you have to set your goals, in a short term, in 5 years ahead, 10 years ahead, bla bla bla..."
Right.. Now.. think different! Think outside the box...
Something different I got from Kang Dicky Zainal Arifin : "Don't live in your planning! Human don't plan and never be able to plan. Just maximize this day, because Life is Today, this moment, this second. Life is NOW, not tomorrow nor yesterday! But remember, the more wealth and prosperity you got, the more consequence and responsibility become harder for you to Allah in judgment day. "
Kang Dicky taught me that this is the Islamic way of thinking. "How could you persist your life in tomorrow, or even one hour ahead, if Allah doesn't allow you to have what you have planned before? People said, 'In one year I will have a car, in ten years I will built a house, in five years I'll become a CEO, etc' That are people said about planning. Of course they'll got them, But they are only the most valuable things they can get in the futures. The situation will be quietly different if they think and do Life is Today. They might will have more than they had imagine before, they will have limousine, they will have buildings, or they'll become the owner of companies."
"Just maximize this day, this second, and this moment. If the present is good, the futures will be better by itself. Insya Allah (this mean if Allah permits it) ."
Well, what an enlightenment...
I can feel that, because sometime my fantasy hampered me to do my activities. Disturbing my concentration, setting myself being an unrealistic person. Damn sinetron (Indonesian soap-slapstick TV serials)..!
Right now, I began to treat myself for living in today not 'in the futures' nor yesterday. Because Life is Today, this moment, this second, so I have to maximize today. If the present is good, the futures will be better by itself. that's all!
Want to try it too, anyone ?
-stay hungry stay foolish-
I Only Have 2 hours / 2:00:00 to my complete thesis every day.
I Only Have 2 hours / 2:00:00 to Improve my Inner Power (TD) every day.
I Only Have 30 minutes / 0:30:00 to Improve my Metaphysics Power every day
I Only Have 1 hour / 1:00:00 to Improve my foreign language skills every day.
I Only Have 15 minutes / 0:15:00 to write a Warrior's Diary every day
I Only Have 45 minutes / 0:45:00 to write Casanovablog every day
This is a commitment of myself
-stay hungry stay foolish-
Through the days, for a while, I had blurred vision and activities for running my life. Yet, I still cannot forget Meli , that lady has made me very stunned and stupid.But I have to keep going. Let's the power of my metaphysics work to attract her, make it as ordinary habit.
Well, there's another classic problem, my bad habit of being a hyper sexual 'creature' that nearly every day I cannot passed without masturbate (I guess the story will be different if I had girlfriend (s) or lover(s)). This bad habit bothered and screwed me up again.
But something different I made yesterday, Know what? I started to control that desire.
I insisted my self to hold it and go out of my home.. So I went to my campus, made some activities, and it worked! I reached a new progress for my thesis, and then I added my experience by became a film-maker consultant.
And yesterday I was making out just with 6000 rupiah (0.8 dollars) in my pocket. But I survived until home, even I got my favorite meal in Gampoeng Aceh: Roti Canai.. Don't you believe that?
That was the amazing of the real life... If someday I got messy with my own mind, gnawed by my sexual desired, maybe I better go out, do something and put my self out there. There a re too much unpredictable things outside there, the true life, not only fantasies among day dreaming.
Because a real guy face the and live in the real life.
-stay hungry stay foolish-
I was hit by writer's block: the sickness of being stammer and don't know what to write, what to tell, as if as my brain getting friezed. This problem occurred in the middle of my effort to finish my thesis. Well, I don't know the reason why. Maybe because I still reminiscing Meli and that memory turned to a self pity emotion in my soul, hampered me to think rationally.
But then I realized something, everything that is problem that cannot kill me, it just make me growing stronger.
Just let them flow in my self, soon I will got back my power. My ability shall return.
let them flow
