Remember a fool story, a stupid man became genius when he drunk ? Yes, it was happened to me...
Last Sunday, I attended my friend's wedding, a friend of Kioser's gang which honestly I don't like them to much. I was a goofy when I joined with those kids, it was approximately in 2nd grade in Highschool SMUN 3 Bandung. These guys were not a good people, they disparagingly mocked at me, treated me as an stupid object of ridiculous.
They were not good people, I thought... And so they are, I think. Not all of them, only the several man that I don't like and I am really not have sympathy with them. Rico and Daman, they always belittled me, even I tried to fight back.
I don't know what their intentions to insult me, maybe they just wanna jested with me and I was too sensitive, or they really intended to do it.
After the wedding party, we went to a club, Neu China.. I was not intended to drink, but Kioser guys cramped me with Jack Daniels and Tequila, mocking me to drink and drink and urge me playing the fool on alchohol effects ... A devil's jobs they did. I got drunk finally.
I hate them.
I was angry, why I don't have self regard to refuse. But something happened... in the middle of stunning, I realized and had a conscience, I don't have 'SOMETHING' to be proud that make me have a confidence, SOMETHING that made them respect to me.
I don't have a JOB, OCCUPATION, nor talents for making money, yet.
I realized that I was stupid and they know that.. so they insulted me.
And then my self revolted... I don't want this happen again, I will not forgive myself....
At the time , in the middle of alcohol effects that raged in my brain, I swore that I have to be SOMETHING when I meet them again. I have to have SOMEONE that I can to be PROUD... Jobs, money, healthy, happy life, private house, car, ........God, Love, and GLORY!
That was a conscious mind between unconscious condition.
So, another week live in day dreaming in every day. Thinking about Meli again.. and as usual, convicted myself in romantic illusions with her, that we've married, having baby, make a family. SHIT !
Why would I tortured myself, I was being victims of my mind. I even didn't use the 'keys of success living' whom the Leadership seminar of Amway taught me in the last 16th December,"We cannot reach our dream by day dreaming. All we have to do is trying, going through the process with consistency, and enjoy the process, 'cause life is just like crossing a street."
This week I even was unconcerned with my trading... I used to watch the chart at least every 4 hours, but this week suddenly I shifted my focus for another dream, a commercial website, that turned me on in front of my laptop until had an eye strain. A part of the website is done now, but now I have a floating position in forex about 300 pips... now I am closing to go bankrupt, again...if this happened that's mean I spend another $8 in a gambling trash.
It's been an inconsistency week, but Thanks God I am not too fall. Right now I do my ritual in Saturday, going to RSHS and catching a female doctor. And I wrote this posting too...
OK, so what's the lesson?
Consistency, Ryan.... Why do you such never learn all this time? You do and after that you don't.. you wake up early and after that you late.. Remember your life become messy, disordered.Because you don't have consistency.
Remember, that's consistency which uphold your shalat, winning your trading, make you become powerful in TD, and even.. making you marry a pretty female doctor.
Now, you've got to have it. So you must break yourself, breakin' the habbit - as Mike Shimoda said. You should remember the life is nothing without dream, commitment, and consistency. Taking the first step to built your consistency part by parts. NOW !
Would you do this?
Remind yourself every time you down, that you should get up again and again.
Would you do this?
Would you do this?
Would you do this?
Would you do this?
Yes, I do !
The last hit was stumbled me down, but now I think the right time build again my confidence in FOREX.
I starting again to trade in Marketiva. Slowly but sure, I will try to cringe again.
Raj has said, "The key in trading is consistency, not else!"
I use again the KISS method, Keep It Simple, Stupid. At the rest let 's the probability sided with me.
Consistency, Discipline!
If investing is entertaining, if you're having fun,
you're probably not making any money.
Good investing is boring.
-George Soros
The Broke down and The Renascent...
One lesson I got from joint Amway is I know that success is a journey, not a goal. Success is when every time you stand up again after you fall. Success is one more many than your fallen.
I was broke! Yes! The last two weeks, I went to bankrupt! I've lost all my money...
Surprise? Of course not... I already know what kind of world that I play in.
A forex world... A zero Sum game.
But Starting this week, I began to make profit again. I started with my last $ 3.. and at the weekend it turned into
$ 5.20 . Alhamdulillah!
I hope this is my renascent.
The "Perfect Weeks" is BACK!
Many lessons I got from here, from my bankrupt and renascent,
that Forex needs discipline, so I need to wake up on. 3.57 AM every trading day.. Just to watch and analyze, and hunting a set up trading.
Forex needs discipline, so I just aim 40 pips a day... After that, I will use half of my margin or less.
Forex needs discipline, so I started to plan withdrawals and make fund reserve in case for injection .
Forex needs discipline, so Enough is Enough !
Welcome Back, The Perfect Weeks ! Stay with me Forever in My Life !
Think for The way Not the Target!
Stay Hungry Stay Foolish.
Let's dance in style, lets dance for a while Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies Hoping for the best but expecting the worst Are you going to drop the bomb or not? Let us die young or let us live forever We don't have the power but we never say never Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip The music's for the sad men Can you imagine when this race is won Turn our golden faces into the sun Praising our leaders we're getting in tune The music's played by the madmen Forever young, I want to be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever Some are like water, some are like the heat Some are a melody and some are the beat Sooner or later they all will be gone Why don't they stay young It's so hard to get old without a cause I don't want to perish like a fading horse Youth is like diamonds in the sun And diamonds are forever So many adventures couldn't happen today So many songs we forgot to play So many dreams are swinging out of the blue We let them come true
This is Steve Jobs speech in Stanford University Commencement in 2005. From here I got the phrase : Stay Hungry Stay Foolish. You could browse this video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1R-jKKp3NA
It was a calm dusk in the month of Ramadhan, when I held an open fasting ceremony with Hikmatul Iman Indonesia's family, and of course including the First Master, Kang Dicky Zainal Arifin. Peaceful dusk, but a nervous situation for me.
It was terrible trading that day, I stayed on floating position against the market on GBP/USD. Well, I used to think the Stochcastic will predict very well, but I was failed. I got that lesson from Kang Gun later.
Feel anxious that night. Almost everything I'd done or said were wrong.
Until The First Master came to me and said a wisdom:
"Free load, be burden free, Think for the way, not the target. Akang (himself) never think about target. If you think about target, then you'll be burdened. But if you think for the way, you'll find shortcuts!"
"The winning or losing was merely a paradigm, a perception of thinking, the game of your mind. In case you've shoot a bird but you missed and the bird flied, you might think you've failed and lose. Well, it was your paradigm, but however you have won at the other side, you've succeeded to pull the riffle trigger, you've succeeded to shot even it missed. See? The fail or success were only the game of mind, it's depend on the way of your thinking."
That's the words of Kang Dicky Zainal Arifin, I'll remember this for my entire life and I do what his said !
Kang Gunadi and Kang Dicky Zainal Arifin, the masters who taught me to think out of the box. It's a blessing for me to know them.
-stay hungry stay foolish-
Yet, still it is...
I didn't get a female doctor...
Nor had Adita Nanda Suryadi to have some date and making out with me...
(Shit! How Fu#$#ing beautiful she is )..
sigh..!
But anyway, this Eid still a Big Day for me!
My name is Rian Irawan Hariadi, and today is my big day! This is the day of Eid (Iedul Fitri), a Moslem's celebration day after devoutness fasting through Ramadan month, the Holy month for Moslems.
This Eid is meaningful for me. As a trader. Guess what? This time is the first time I pay Zakat Fitrah (the charity obligation in Islam) with my own money gained from FOREX trading. I have just made withdrawal for $ 13 from my balance account, and this day I have paid $ 6 for zakat. What a moment!
Beginning from less than a year ago when I entered the forex world. Now I've started to make money from FOREX.
What a GLORY!
Every trader has to obey this, or at least, he/she knows about this: No Emotion Triangle of Trading.
NO GREED - quiet enough for what you got this time!
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NO REGRET NO HOPE
- NEVER sorry any decision you made - The market will never follow you, you DO follow it!
