Amazing, the true life is out there...
Through the days, for a while, I had blurred vision and activities for running my life. Yet, I still cannot forget Meli , that lady has made me very stunned and stupid.But I have to keep going. Let's the power of my metaphysics work to attract her, make it as ordinary habit.
Well, there's another classic problem, my bad habit of being a hyper sexual 'creature' that nearly every day I cannot passed without masturbate (I guess the story will be different if I had girlfriend (s) or lover(s)). This bad habit bothered and screwed me up again.
But something different I made yesterday, Know what? I started to control that desire.
I insisted my self to hold it and go out of my home.. So I went to my campus, made some activities, and it worked! I reached a new progress for my thesis, and then I added my experience by became a film-maker consultant.
And yesterday I was making out just with 6000 rupiah (0.8 dollars) in my pocket. But I survived until home, even I got my favorite meal in Gampoeng Aceh: Roti Canai.. Don't you believe that?
That was the amazing of the real life... If someday I got messy with my own mind, gnawed by my sexual desired, maybe I better go out, do something and put my self out there. There a re too much unpredictable things outside there, the true life, not only fantasies among day dreaming.
Because a real guy face the and live in the real life.
-stay hungry stay foolish-
Comments
Hi there, congrats on the journey.
Yes I agree that you should focus your attention to something more constructive and resourceful. However, keep in mind that focusing it to external thing probably won't do much to settle with the internal drive.
Set some time to reflect on your personal/spiritual values and feel how good it is to have your body controls its desire almost instinctively than being too serious working on it consciously.
Seize the day, bro.
Ryan